Des fois j'comprends vraiment rien
ni rien à rien
la boussole est cassée
j'ai peut-être oublié

passer l'éponge
la partie a fini trop tôt

on ne sait plus on ne sait rien
quand je m'endors
je pense tout le temps à toi
mais pourtant j'ai pas l'impression que c'est réel
j'ai l'impression que c'est superficiel
j'arrive pas à te creuser
j'y vais pas assez loin
jamais

closer
to
you

comment te trouver
comment te toucher
c'est un peu impossible
ce qui est vrai
tu le dis en espagnol
pis jcomprends rien caliss
fac

c'est peut-être pas pour rien
peut-être que y'est assez temps
que j'arrête tout criss

ayoye man
ca fait mal
ca fait mal
parce qu au fond c est evident
cque je transpose su toé




jai aucune idée comment gérer ca tbk
pour être honnête
jai aucune idée







I dont belong to anyone
to anywhere
beside
this universe

i dont care about gains
i dont care about lost
all i care about
all im getting dedicated about
is to get free
i need to get free
i wish to get free
all i want is to be FREE

I WISH, GOD
TO BE FREE

FREE
FREE
AND LIVE THIS LIFE FREELY WITH ALL THE POWER OF MY LOVE

THAT IS MY ONLY FOCUS
MY ONLY WISH FOR NOW



IS TO BE FREE





MY VOICE
MY FREEDOM
MY EXPRESSION
MY IDENTITY
WAS
TAKEN AWAY
WAS SUPRESSED

THE INNER SELF WANTS TO GET OUTTT
OUT
OUT
OUT
VOMIT
WHATEVER WAY
A VOLCANO
AN EXPLOSION
IT WANTS TO GET OUT

AN IMPORTANT PART OF ME
IS TRAPPED
TRAPPED
TRAPPED INSIDE
TRAPPED BURRIED


I LOST MYSELF
IN MY PAST
IN MY CHILDHOOD
IN MY FAMILY

I NEVER GOT TO DEVELOPP WHO I AM

POWER STRUGGLE




i am here
on this earth
to relate
and somewhere
i sacrificed my relatedness desires
do you realise
how bad
this feels
to go against your hearts very desire



I sacrificed this relatedness
i said
fuck off
im nowhere to be found
i cant relate
fuck
so this is truly my hardest lesson?
learn to fuckin relate
i guess we learn to relate through our vulnerability
which is...
admitting our pain and flaws
that everybody shares
cause
life is hard
that's true
so might as well share what we got
i know that
i know all that
but
i am so burried
and when i say
i
i mean
my inner self
cat
shes there
shes always there
but she is buried
all that she wants is buried
to relate
connection
to talk to share to express
buried
her sexuality
buried
i am sexual
i am very sexual
i am hyper sexual
but this is all
very
deeeply
buried within me
so... start by being sexual with myself?
start by loving this body
loving this temple
loving this existence
those senses
so what i did
is that i put others first
before me
i went on living through their life
like a spectator of their own achievements
and successes
and it hurt me very deeply
i was not living anymore
not taking any risk
not going for my hearts desires
no
it was all buried
i settled for a comfortable dead life
like ive been taught to
and i am so over it
but how much am i
cause
i still am not going for what i want
but at least i admit what I want
connections
expression
creativity
thats all
connections
expression
creativity
thats all i want
and peace and freedom within

space of being RAW AND HONEST WITHIN OURSELF
is where we can
OVERCOME THIS
something is hidden
a truth is hidden